Light at the end of the tunnel???

Oh my! What a roller coaster of a weekend! I arrived Friday. Steve, Todd, Elizabeth and Jacob met me at the train station. It was a sweet but tearful reunion. We went to breakfast at Denny's in Valencia on our way up the hill. Julie and Cody met us there just a little bit later. Cody had just gotten his braces off and he was finally able to eat anything he wanted. I went home with Steve and the kids for a little bit. The house is in need of a very thorough cleaning. The kids have clothes everywhere; Jacob still has socks and underwear in his drawers from when he was 2 years old. Nothing has ever been taken care of. When they move, they just pack up all the drawers and take everything as is. The kitchen needs a lot of work and the bathrooms...well, we won't even go there! (Today is Monday and I still have not seen Tracy. I don't intend to.) We all came up to Todd and Julie's and had dinner and a nice visit. Just as we were getting our coats on and opening the door, there was a knock and a man presented Steve with papers. We thought it was divorce papers, but it turned out to be a temporary restraining order against Steve. It was totally unexpected and totally without warrant. It just felt like we'd been kicked in the stomach. We all decided to stay at Todd's and have a sleep-over. Jacob said "this will be the best sleep-over ever!" We just all needed to be together and it was a wonderful time of bonding and praying for Tracy and Steve and the kids. We are all accepting that this will result in divorce, so now we are just praying for Tracy's salvation. She has to be living with such guilt...she can't stand to be around any of us. She told Steve she hates that we're all together up here "judging her". That's the farthest thing from the truth. We are concerned for her and praying for her. The guilt she's feeling is because she knows she's done the most wrong thing she could do as a mother and wife. Now I'm praying for Steve and that some day things will get better for him. He deserves so much better. I feel as if I've aged by 80 years. I'm physically and mentally worn out, but know it can't get worse. It can only get better from here.

Hearts are breaking

The worst scenario has happened. Tracy has moved out of their house and has a guy, Peter Green, living with her. He moved out on his wife and little daughter. Such selfishness I can never understand. I think we have been going through all the stages of grief as if she is dead. In way, she is...the Tracy I thought I knew is dead to me. How dreadful! My heart is breaking for Steve and the children. I am leaving in the next day or so to go to California to be with them and offer any help I can. I still don't know how she can do this...our whole family has lost her, but everyone is soooooooooo supportive of Steve. I know he will be able to come out on top of this.